My letter

To my dearest boyfriend who I will always love
Here are a few words for you, inspired from above
Firstly thank you for sharing your love with me
And for loving me for the person that I have in me

These last four months have been the best of my life
Every night I prey to one day become your wife
I truly mean each word I write or say to you
Never have I lied except be honest and true

My days get better the more time we spend
You are the perfect man and the perfect best friend
You are not only a boyfriend but I admire you the most
And my love for you was real and never almost

The night that we spent together listening to our songs
Singing to each others hearts made me realize we belong
A tear fell because of the happiness in my heart
I know from your heart I will never depart

Falling asleep in your arms having my dreams by my side
I know that for the rest of our life in your I can confide
In my heart I always preyed to hold someone like you
Never did I think at this time my prey would come true

Each times my hand touches yours and our eyes meet
My body melts and my heart skips a beat
I love the fact I can be myself in front of you
I hope you feel the same with me too

I have had the time of my life and its you I owe it all to
I think so highly of you baby no matter what you go through
I admire everything you choose or want to do or see
Even Your intelligence cause you were smart enough to fall in love with me.--

These are my feelings toward you. I know that they are a little out of context, but I still love you and want to be with you. Pushing you away is something that I am dreading. I never want to be without you. Even if you move back to Mississippi I still think that we could work this out. I can’t imagine you with another woman and I can’t imagine myself with another man. It breaks my heart at the thought of it all.

I know that you are only looking out for what is best so prove that I trust you I’m going to go with it. I hate it when you leave me. I know that you will come back at some point, only it leaves me empty. Like I have nothing left when you do leave. We do have some things that I think I am going to need help on working out. You are going to have to work on them too. I’m sorry and I know that you don’t like this, but I don’t like Patricia. I can’t stand the way that you seem to always drop me to go to her when she is in need, but when I need you it’s “I’ll be there in a little bit”. I understand that she is your “best friend,” but I want to know that I am someone too.

I will make a deal with you. I won’t say anything about you going over there anymore as long as you don’t spend the night over there anymore. Deal? I’m sorry, but I can’t stand that you stay the night. That’s what upsets me the most, other than her and you texting back and forth when I’m trying to talk to you or spend time with you. I want this to work out between us. I don’t think that it can with her anywhere in our lives, but I’m willing try under certain conditions.

I do however love you with all of my heart though! You mean the world to me and I know that you hate it when I say this, yet I do want to be with you the rest of my life. I would feel honored to wake up to you every morning…to fall asleep in your arms every night. It would be an amazing feeling to know that we are together forever and can raise a family together.

That’s what my blog was about the other night. About raising a family and not being where I wanted to be or where I want to be. I always pictured it differently. I pictured me in some sort of relationship. Honestly, I wanted to be married first. Funny how that works out though…lol. I don’t want you to leave. I want you to stay with me. If you leave then I’m want to leave with you. As soon as you get a place and get your feet back on the ground I want to move to Mississippi to be with you again. That is if you still want me.

This is getting to long for me so I love you and I will always love you!

Love Always and For All Eternity,

Lacee

Do you think that I wrote this fair? About the whole Patricia thing? I think that I was more than generous, but I want to know if I said everything that I should have.