Don't you love good nights?

I love it when I have nights like I did last night! Last night Chad had to work so I decided to have a friend come over. I invited Nikki to come over because she didn't want to go home. My dad got all pissy about it though. I don't care. He was being a baby and I don't care what he has to say when it comes to Nikki. Either do I care what my mom has to say. Anyways, she stayed and watched a movie while I fell asleep on my couch. I felt bad about that later, but she was watching a movie so I think that she isn't that mad at me about that. When it was time to take her home my dad became an asshole again. He is such a loser sometimes. We dropped her off and the ran an erand (dad bitched the entire time) .

I watched tv and then Chad called me and told me that he was on his way home. My mom came into my room when Chad and I hung up and started to watch tv with me. I told her that Chad was almost home and when he gets her she has to leave. When he opened my door I said "she was just leaving". Lol. I thought that it was kinda slightly funny. He came and sat down until he went to the kitchen to make himself food. After he made himself some food and finished eating, he came back and sat with me on my couch. On the commercials I tried to make him kiss me, but he wouldn't. So we started to mess around (none sexually). It was fun. He kept screaming "rape" or "molestation" or something silly like that. I had fun and he did too. By the end of the night we were both extremely turned on because I kept sitting on top of him and I was moving, trying to get him to kiss me.

The only real downer to the entire night was the fact that I told him I loved him and he didn't say it back to me. It really hurt me. He doesn't say it to me anymore. I have to say it and get upset about it in order for him to say "I love you" to me. I don't think that I should have to do that. It bothers me sometimes too. I know in my heart that I love him. I know that he loves me most of the time too. Why can't he find the time or the breath to say that he loves me? I wish that I could figure this out, but I honest;y can't understand guys sometimes. Oh well. I still had a great night even wit this downward twist to it.

The only reason that it doesn't bother me that much is because I know that I love Chad and that at least he is with me and not someone else. The 9th is our anniversary. I'm hoping that he will take me out, but I doubt that it will happen. I don't care too much about going out. I am just wonder if he will even remember that the 9th is our anniversary... If he doesn't thats ok. I'll tell him about it laters.

Anyways, after we wreslted around we watched a movie. When the movie was over he was tired so I went to tuck him in. I started to leave and he asked me to stay till he fell asleep. I love to watch him sleep. He looks so sweet and innocent. Just looking at him drifting away into a place that no one can remember is an amazing feeling. I love being able to watch him. I know that it sounds weird, but you have to understand where I'm coming from. Girls know what its like to watch their man sleep, that is as long as they are peaceful sleepers. Lol. When he was asleep I kissed him on the cheek, made sure that he was tucked in tight and went to go to sleep in my room. I couldn't fall directly asleep, but I did after a little while and that was my good night with mi amor. I guess my happiness really is there. I just have to wait for the right moment.

Lacee